My friend Cynthia and I were talking yesterday about instances in one's life that leave an emotional and subconscious impression, so I was trying to think of a few positive ones from my own past. I have to say, that every time I felt myself coming "out from under" a situation in which there were expectations on me for productivity of one kind or another, I would feel unburdened. Hugely.
So, after many years, I achieved a state of relative freedom. I won't go into the details, but will say that I consider myself to have, in comparison with the majority, fairly fortunate circumstances. But it's also true that I don't fall prey to the fantasy world of the promise of unfettered acquisition that bombards our senses on a daily basis. (I don't play the lottery, or anything like it. (IMHO, Casinos are the true "Montezuma's revenge.")
But I digress.
On my last day of high school, I felt happier than I had in years. Whenever I'd quit a job, I felt like celebrating. When I decided to quit university, it was great. When I "left the world" to join a religious group, it was pure relief. When I finally left them to go live on my own and start my own small business, it was a new beginning.
Point is: I think there are those of us who just have an extraordinarily difficult time living under the yoke of someone else's needs and intentions.
The flip side of the situation is that when you're on your own you have to find your own way—decide what's important and apply yourself. Find a reason to get up every day and make your life meaningful—in your own terms. Learn things that are important to you. Make a difference. Make yourself proud of you. It's all on you, and that's not easy either.